Penniless Journey!

Okey, It was around two months back. I was on my way from Jawalakhel to Ratnapark on a microbus. Upon reaching the Bagmati bridge in Kupondole. The conductor asked me for ticket fair.

Like always, most of the time I keep my wallet in my front case of my bag. But it wasn't there. I searched my pockets. No it wasn't. And then I looked in my bag. There was nothing more than few coins.
I remembered, I had a emergency saving place in my bag. But sadly, It was consumed voraciously too.. days before, in an expensive sweets shop with my friend.

A man nearly of my age sat next to me. He saw me restlessly searching here and there. Everyone was silent and busy in their thoughts or so. He saw me moving but not a single word like I was expecting - "What happened brother ?". But no, utter silence continued.

I knew I was kind of screwed. I just "feel" too much. So, I didn't wanted the conductor to shout at me upon the exit. It was an embarrassing situation. For some time, I waited and watched the Traffic Jams.
I told this man, in a very soft tone, slim voice. I don't even know I can produce that kind of *muted tone. I said - I forget my wallet. And I don't have a single penny with me, actually managing to smile over the weird situation. He listened. For sometime, he was like silent. Like, - "Its your matters. We all are separate here."

Then he very quickly took some money out of his wallet. He didn't even said me anything. But as he handled it to the conductor, he told - "take his fair sum too". I was like "huh!", much relieved. I mean NRs. 15 is not a big money. But the feeling you get from it. It was like oh! there are so many good people in this world for a moment. I mean I have seen people bargaining angrily for NRs. 2 for about 10 minutes long often on my way with the conductor. And it really irritates me so much if I am in the same micro to hear those. But this man is giving my sum. He didn't said me that he was going to give. I Thanked him.

Soon, there was this growing feeling of security with this stranger. I asked where he was going ? And why ? He said - "Padma Kanya college for his BCA 1st year exam". Hehe! The examination center in the girl's college. He lived in Pulchowk. And he was like confused exactly for the location of the college. It was on my way to college, where I used to teach. So, I said him - ok, I am going there too. I will show you the way. But it didn't affected him much. Because, maybe he knew he was going to find anyway.

We left the micro reaching Ratnapart. We were walking together on the pavements. He was like saying stuffs related to his exams. I took his number. He was unwilling at first saying - "nevermind". I asked him again & again. He gave me his number and name. I wished him best of luck for the exams. And walked on my way to the college, without a single penny anywhere with me. But a new friend on my mind.

Passion.. and JNMD

JAVASCRIPT:

ok. Recently I have been much in mind hassles. It was the Bollywood movie "Jindagi Na Milegi Dobara". Naseeruddin Shah played the role of an painter. He left his biological child (played by Farhan Akhtar) ever since his infancy. Now, it was a son who come to Spain to see his father all the way. Of course he had a "high five" time with his friends.

But the most intriguing question an artist father can ask to his son over a short meet is the topic here. He asked - "What do you do for yourself ?". Many people mislead this question with "What do you do ? or What do you do for living ?". But its more in depth that mere "one's profession".

The son understood, he replied "I write." And his father face shone. Not because they share "artistic genes", neither for his son can stand and support him. But because, any artist well knows how important it is for a man to find his "passion" and live in its flow.

The movie portrays "Hrithik Roshan" a reserved, stock-exchange guy who once had a 'love', until he passionately falls in love with "Katrina Kaif". Similarly, "Abhay Deol", a committed guy rediscovers his priorities just in time before being chased by bulls in the streets of Spain.

Someone who lives in the flow of his/her passion, is always filled with life:

Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho, toh zinda ho tum
Nazar mein khwaabon ki bijliyan leke chal rahe ho, toh zinda ho tum

Hawa ke jhokon ke jaise aazad rehna seekho

Tum ek dariya ke jaise lehron mein behna seekho

Har ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni baahein

Har ek pal ek naya samaa dekhiye

Jo apni aankhon mein hayraniyan leke chal rahe ho, toh zinda ho tum

Dilon mein tum apni betaabiyan leke chal rahe ho, toh zinda ho tum

Gender Roles!

Males have long been associated as warriors. Warriors, built to run, to fight, and to kill. Say thousands of years of evolutionary has shaped a male's body in this way and more importantly for this.

Unlike females who specializes in details, a male psychology is shaped around to interpret abstract scenario. A male wander far into the forest for food source. Females stay around home child raising, involves in cooking, decorating the tiny beads to make a necklace, and making homes more usable.

Say, we put a male and female in a maize. While finding their way out of the maize a female will focus on the near object and tracks minute details of each turning, whereas male counterpart are more focused on the overall direction they are moving with respect to the initial position in the long term. Of course both have their pros and cons, But yes, they are made to be with each other to solve this maize.

A mature female can deal with her emotions well, be it by crying, or by other means of expressive relieve. She can stabilize herself in short time. But males are usually confused when it comes to emotions. Be it their trait that helps them while fierce hunting - "never give up", which is not always good specially around "feelings".

A male's emotions is built to win the fight with the beast in the jungle anyhow. He is built to impress the female who might spread his genes into distant future. Males of many species engage in battles with each other for this act.

Therefore, a male will need more time to "move on" when the couple will "break up". He will make up his mind to "give up" & "don't do anything" which counteract his psychology. Examples are many celebrity's crashed marriage in which the male partner is asking to her for some time to patch up his broken heart & heal before divorce. A mature male also takes time to "move in" a relationship.

While a male finds solace for his emotions around the arms of his reciprocating partner, a female finds strength for a family in his arms.

Saying so, I do respect the individuality of each of our 7 billion genders before any generalization in these regards. Yes, there are females physically very much stronger and men who cries a lot.

Oh! Summer, Give me some sunshine, give me some rain....

Well.. the summer is on toll in ktm.
I walk in the heat of the day. Occasionally I find a water-tanker staying somewhere in my way. Drippling the drops, completely filled, standing full of potential. I can even feel its chill as I walk into its shadow for a moment.

Well, the "potential" to make people happier for a moment. I imagine, a fire-brigade.. with a water thrower on the top.

I imagine the infinite potential of joy the tanks holds within,.. the smiles, the laughter and the giggles, the "run-run" that it might bring to the pedestrians on its way.